Leave Me Alone;
I'm Trying!!!

But all that stills leaves me with having to find my own way. Plus, I'm not so sure my goal here is to become a detached observer of my life or anything else around it. I like to be passionate about my life, make love to it, give it a few orgasms. I want to be in it and of it, totally, completely, in sheer abandon, for better or for worse.

This makes me think of a friend of mine, Dannie Quinn, who recently started dedicating herself to photography, and turned out to be an extremely gifted photographer. Her slide show link, in case you'd like to check it out for yourself, is:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/shantaya/show/

Now, there are plenty of photographers who are the detached-observer type, who register and move on, and that's ok; it's who they are. But my friend is what I would call a spiritual photographer. She deeply reflects her inner beauty through her camera lenses. I especially love the fact that she's not afraid to explore and express her up-close-and-personal relationship with everything that surrounds and involves her, and to find divine beauty in it all. She is everything but a detached observer. She acknowledges her deep relationship and connection with her subjects, and unconditionally loves as she immortalizes them from her own unique perspective. And that's what I want my relationship to life to be all about.

That's what I find myself moving towards. Well, maybe the unconditional part will take a little longer to achieve than the rest, but only can only hope … and keep moving forward.

I get it that we can't allow ourselves to be completely consumed by our problems or the issues we see all around us, if we want to effectively change the situation. However, I also get this quote from Abraham-Hicks (www.abraham-hicks.com):

"One who is mostly an observer thrives in good times but suffers in bad times because what he is observing is already vibrating, and as he observes it, he includes it in his vibrational countenance. As he includes it, the Universe accepts that as his point of attraction and gives him more of it. So the better it gets the better it gets. Or the worse it gets the worse it gets. While one who is a visionary thrives in all times." (Excerpted from the workshop in Portland, OR, on Tuesday, June 10th, 1997.)