The Challenge
(Or One of Them)

I guess that's one of the reasons we come here: to remember who we really are, and ultimately make that choice. It's just that, in my mind, I often felt I was not even worthy of initiating a change process because I was not good enough. I didn't believe that if I just chose something I care about, followed my heart and made it happen, even if it were on a small scale, it would really be making a difference. I thought that whatever changes I made, they would have to be on a much larger scale, as I was influenced by a culture filled with so many amazing people doing things in the grandest possible styles. It seemed like hard footsteps to follow. Just too much for little ol' me.

And so I read all about how to build an organic garden and do composting and save water and energy, etc, etc, etc. And then I watched movies and documentaries about the environment and felt inspired (or shamed) into doing something about it. And then I saved all the web site links and their huge lists of things to do. At first, my intention was to go all out; but then, for lack of time or money or energy or simply for being lazy, all I managed to do in the end was to neatly organize my web site bookmarks for future use and buy a few eco-friendly light bulbs.

Until I decided to stop trying to become someone I'm not, and find my own small way to help by doing something I enjoy, am good at and can have fun with: writing all this stuff and starting this web site to hopefully break it down for other people like me.